Once again, I found myself thinking of the future instead of being in the present. I got wrapped up in the giant checklist in my head. Jojo and I had just finished lunch and we were getting close to nap time. She had eaten yogurt which meant an extra messy clean up for me. Since I had a lot I needed to get done during her nap, I wanted to clean everything up right away. She asked me to read her a book and I told her I could in five minutes after I cleaned up a bit. She accepted that and began to play on her own.
I put some music on in the background and started on the dishes. I was no more than two dishes in when I looked down and saw Jojo playing with her bowls right by my feet. Suddenly, she got up and started dancing around the kitchen. Her little body was twirling around with the sweetest look on her face. I felt overwhelmed with love, pride, happiness. All the warm fuzzies. It was as if someone threw water on my face and said what are you doing? The dishes can wait. I dropped the dish I was cleaning into the sink and swooped her into my arms. We danced and twirled around together from the kitchen to the living room with “She’s Not Just a Pretty Face” by Shania Twain playing on full volume. Jojo was giggling and smiling so big the whole time. And so was I.
After I put her down, the extra five minutes I spent finishing the dishes had zero negative effect on me or the to-do list I had while she slept. I actually smiled to myself while washing them, thinking about her beautiful self twirling around just a few feet away. A moment I almost let slip by because I wanted to get the dishes done that second.
Reflection
Reflecting on this made me wonder how many moments I’ve missed in the past because I was so focused on getting X, Y, and Z done. We aren’t perfect and there are things that we have to do. We can’t always dance in the kitchen and ignore other household tasks. But if you can push them off here and there to share memories like this, I suggest you do it. If it means feeling the way I did then, I never want to let those moments go.
Finding time to fit moments in like this are what life is all about. And for me, I’ve realized it’s where the gratification of being a stay at home mom comes from. Being able to pick up my beautiful daughter and dance with her in the kitchen at 12pm is such a gift. One that I will cherish for as long as I’m able to. It’s easy to get wrapped up in the hard parts of this job. So easy that the hard parts can overshadow the good ones, or even worse, make you miss them. We only get to do this for so long before they are off to school. Find the positives and hold on to them. Create them as frequently as you can. Make sure it’s a time in your life that when you look back on it, you will be filled with an overwhelming joy and pride for what you’ve done and who you’ve gotten to spend it with.

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